Dreams about Mama
August marks the 8th month since Mama passed away. I thought I've finally moved on and successfully passed the acceptance and recovery stages but I was wrong. Just the other night, I dreamed of her. The next day I found myself crying because of bereavement. I so long to kiss and hug her more. I truly miss her charm and smiles. I miss her words and her caress. T'was after a petty fight with the one who promised to take care of me. Right! It only guaranteed that promises are made to be broken.
I've realized how hard it was that I've gone through. And when I thought I've regained the torn me, I was wrong. I still loss some pieces just like of an unfinished puzzle. But, this incomplete person has been so blessed in so many ways and I truly praise HIM for that. I told Keanna just recently that I am so thankful I have her & Roey because if not, I could have lost my sanity. I am not only thankful of having my wonderful kids but my friends & relatives as well. I didn't imagine I'd be able to pass through that challenge. It was tough and made me a better person. I now know whom I can run to when I need someone. I now know whom I can trust and rely on. Anyways, I'm gonna visit you at the cemetery soon Mama. Again, THANK YOU so much for everything. I know you are happy where you are now. Please continue to be our angel. I love you so much!
9 comments:
am so sorry for your loss...
*sending over hugs and prayers
John 5:28 - the promise I hold on to...
It's more than two years now but I often cry as well... :(
aw! same w/ mirage's message, it's been 9 long years since my mom passed away w/ my dad who had gone w/ her last november...it's not the way it used to be...
kakaiyak post mo...
have time to visit me here too @ my http://www.bongabonlife.com/2011/08/18/fun-with-kindred-souls/
we're both riding on the wave of loneliness, only finding comfort knowing the Creator was taking good care of my parents.
*hugs*
I feel lucky that I still have both my parents. Sad to say my mom and I had a fallout a few years ago. I miss our moments together but the wound of our words and actions are still there.
Dear Steff, This is such a sweet post and tribute to your dear mama. I am currently at my 88 yr old mom's house 2500miles away from my home. She fell 4 weeks ago,almost died due to a morphine overdose/reaction, and is now home recuperating. I've been helping her, but return home next week. I'm going to read your words to her tomorrow and tell her how special she is to me. She has been driving me a little bonkers,but your words remind me how lucky I am too still have her. I too hold on tightly to the Lord and praise and bless Him for his grace and mercy.
xx-Cassie
inamazinggraceland.blogspot.com
I think it's true what they say... you never get over the loss, you just get used to the pain.
I honestly don't know what to say, as I've never lost anyone that close to me...
Stay strong.
your post made me cry Sis :-(, may you find the courage you are looking for, I have not see my Mama 5 years ago in the Philippines. I cannnot wait to see her. Visiting from PF, hope you can visit my entries here too
http://www.adventurousjessy.com/2011/08/pink-entry-84-a-pink-duck-for-a-cancer-cause.html
http://www.tropical7107islands.com/2011/08/pink-entry-84-pink-flower-on-the-lily-pad.html
Am so sorry to hear that. I have lost my brother in August 16, 1986. 25 years has passed and still it's so hard to get over it. I still remember him like it was yesterday. Maybe one can never really get over the lost of a loved one. It's just something that we have to live with to in everyday of our lives.
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