August marks the 8th month since Mama passed away. I thought I've finally moved on and successfully passed the acceptance and recovery stages but I was wrong. Just the other night, I dreamed of her. The next day I found myself crying because of bereavement. I so long to kiss and hug her more. I truly miss her charm and smiles. I miss her words and her caress. T'was after a petty fight with the one who promised to take care of me. Right! It only guaranteed that promises are made to be broken.
I've realized how hard it was that I've gone through. And when I thought I've regained the torn me, I was wrong. I still loss some pieces just like of an unfinished puzzle. But, this incomplete person has been so blessed in so many ways and I truly praise HIM for that. I told Keanna just recently that I am so thankful I have her & Roey because if not, I could have lost my sanity. I am not only thankful of having my wonderful kids but my friends & relatives as well. I didn't imagine I'd be able to pass through that challenge. It was tough and made me a better person. I now know whom I can run to when I need someone. I now know whom I can trust and rely on. Anyways, I'm gonna visit you at the cemetery soon Mama. Again, THANK YOU so much for everything. I know you are happy where you are now. Please continue to be our angel. I love you so much!